shut down

i seem like shutting down my emotion from the World recently..
all the feelings are burried inside...who else can feel it beside me?
it seems to remind me of lots of thing
but im learning to not reveal tt much of my feelings even though my heart is aching...
is tt gd thing?

guess its a gd thing bah...
it my sadness..its not gd to have it impact on other ppl' lifes...
just like what miss claire said when discussing abt e abortion issue..
the mother is selfish and she doesnt want to make her child suffers due to her selfishness..so might as well not let e child come to this world..
but there is difference..


i would not abort my child,if i have one in e future , due to tt kind of reason..
but rather, i ll try hard to change what is not gd in me..
changing always take sarcrifice.be it to the gd mean or bad mean..