cold

did u say u were cold last night?
...


feeling rather down right now...n so sad u turned ur shoulder away from me in the morning...
guess its becos of tt,so i didnt feel rite e whole morning..

i was v tired yesterday n have no work done..

Its cold again today...

but all in all, i still treasure the afternoon time...it feels gd...
dont deny tt..

u have said something tt shocked me a lot n i was tearing inside..

i realised im v random speaking now..

"It may seem alot, yet i don sense any achievement... jus feel down... haiz... back to square one... after you climb a mountain, after u reach its peak, there is no other way to go, except to go down.... i am rolling down... and there are bumps along the road... seems like i am all alone..."

maybe im not gd at all bah..
or maybe all kinds of relationship is like this..
are they?
im losing confidence,yet i noe there is God with me....
"i could sing of ur love forever..."

There r certainly those times when u obviously noe this person is lying by his tone and expression,yet there r nothing u could do. Forcing the truth to reveal will only hurt both of you. Yet human beings like myself will want to hear the fact even though i knew it in my heart.

The feeling of helplessness was engulfing me...
n so does the feeling of loneliness and sadness now...

Maybe there r realli times when everyone need a bit of quietness and peace, to pack ourselves and go on again...

Sometimes we will refuse to do what is gd for us even though we know its gd...
tts y demons can success even though they onli have the weapon named lying...
our faith will be tested and can be tested..

It feels great to lie on that broad shoulder just after exercise, in an air-conditioned place where the sunshine spread all over me...
i have the feeling tt i own the World..
my World or should i say our World..
with He as the centre..

"I am a child of God
No i won't deny it
No i won't deny it"

"I could sing of your love forever..."

nowadays heart so weak...
Will i stand the repeating "heart attack"?
haha...


random thought:donno abt guys...but i pity girls...or should i say women?

crying...

Had been through many things these few days...
Life is harder than what we can expect, but yet there r always solutions.
=)
i have been striking a balance between him n her...n im on my way there...
but what abt another person who faces similiar problem wif me but much more difficult to handle...
lay upon God's power and let things go according to His'plan...

Got back most of my block tests result le...
2S....1B....n 1U(can imagine it will be a U)...
hmmm...though i should be used to it,abt failing my english paper bah,yet i cant stop feeling sad cos all e other papers r also so badly done when there r so many ppl scoring tt well...so its not impossible to be done...
tried to stop tears from coming out...i noe i can do it v well de..
but when looking at u, e soft side of me will be exposed....its hard...
hard to control myself from tearing...

endured for a long time until i dont feel like crying but shouting instead...
hmmm...well,consider tt its v not shu nv like....muhahaha,so i didnt...


crying out seems to make me feel better le..
thanks for being there for me even though i was not tt gd to u just now...
i feel v sad cant make u happy but be so bad to u...
>.<
trust me,realli felt bad abt it...
>.<

lets work hard for promo. bah!=p
im fine now le...=)

comfort zone................dangerous zone

Block test has ended and one phrase of my JC life has completed...
i cant say how well i have done in this first phrase,but it makes me experience lots of thing...the class bonding,friends,walk in God's path and u....
n guess what?i prayed last Sun.morning before began studying...n i think i have realli gone into the study state,at least much better than e previous half a year...
i actualli feel quite happy or maybe satisfied when i study cos i noe it may be a slow process but im doing them one by one,n they ll be completed by me one day...
n more importantly,i noe u r in e studying state too...
we r going to work together,arent we?

im drawning more n more...
n u have became my comfort zone,what ll i become if one day i need to leave u?i donno...but we cant predict e future,yet anything happen is for a purpose,we have to believe in it...

i was feeling quite sad bah...
hmmm...i donno y every ppl ll assume tt someone like another person ll tend be reluctant to spend time wif their frenz...it may be true to some extend,but we must understand tt girls n boys r different,one(boy) cant fulfill e thing we find in another(girl)....
i dont want to miss u in my life too...i was thinking of u..n feeling quite down...i certainly donno what ll happen...yet,i want this friendship to maintain...
i guess u may not c this entry bah...

God has plan for me isnt it?so i ll just lean upon e holy spirit and walk in faith...

i dont want to miss a thing...

Have taken a break from blogging...
n i certainly feel e urge to say things out now..
went to service yesterday.
great preaching,great msg...

7/7/06
its an afternoon,which i miss a lot...
it seems to be a normal day but its meaningful...

time nvr seem to be wasted when u r wif ur closest ppl,isnt it?ur frenz,family and most importantly u..

today is Sunday,i went to JP to buy books and saw quite a lots of ppl bought things from NTUC and coming out...
it feels great...how i wish i can spend sunday morning cooking some nice foods for ppl i love...

"The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved,loved for ourselves,or rather loved in spite of ourselves."
-Victor Hugo

feeling sad when heard ur sad voice...i didnt noe what to do...
i was down...
but i want to make u happy...
it always feel so nervous and regret when u c someone u love angry wif u n more they sad becos of u...be it my mom or u...
just realised, love has soiled in my heart..and e root is getting deeper...

"let your love be like the misty rains,coming softly,but flooding the river."
-Malagasy Proverb

"Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love."
-Albert Einstein
"who,being loved,is poor?"
-Oscar Wilde


i dont want to miss anything tt happened in ur life,be it e past or e future...

God 's plan

God has a plan for every one of us,n i certainly trust Him n his plan for me...
what i ll do is to treasure everything He has set for me n do e best out of me...
everything,including u...
u r e one who introduce(maybe unconciously,yet i should praise e development of blog) n lead me to e walk wif Him and wif u...
i value these relationships...n i want to enter ur life...i want to noe more...

i was once an introvert...
but through experience and growing,i learnt its okie to be an introvert yet sometimes we should try to speak up for it ll let ppl noe how we feel instead of assuming they know...

First relationship is always e hardest,which u gave e most n recieved e most(regrets,hurt,sadness and happiness of course)...
everyone ll have e first time,n after tt,we become mature n noe certain things ll hurt ppl..so we ll give e right things but not all things n recieved mostly happiness but not all things again...

in whatever means, i want to give u e best memory of ur first contact wif relationship wif human beings...
relationship wif God is different cos God knows everything and He does not have shortcomes,which human beings do have...tts what makes relationship wif God so great...
i dont want u to feel hurt but remember e joy life can give u...

sometimes i may sound harsh...
but just want to say i want u to get e best out of u,for ur own goods...
i ll watch over e limit...=)

ya...i believe in God's plan for me...n He lets me found u out of e crowd and fulfilled my wish...
what do u think?
i ll walk....to whr?i donno...but there is a purpose...

goal dream

dream?
hmmm....there is a chinese character in my name equivalent to dream...."meng"....
maybe is because of the name,i dreamt a lot when i was young,i could still remember some of e dreams i had in my childhood...

well...in e reality,i like to dream but i dont dare to dream most of e times..

dream is different from goal...
goal is more realistic...be it far goal or near goal....actualli near goal builds up far goal,isnt it?