Guitar concert on Fri...28th April 2006

Fri. was e guitar concert..
n its yj,sk and rc s maiden performance..
xs,me,liupu and xiaoming went to coro. to buy choco...cos we didnt buy something for "ourselves",so liupu kept on saying tt e concert has already started..n we ended up running...pity xiaoming,for having carry his bag...lol...n we should realli call lp along next time when we r rushing for times...v efficient..
n luckily,we just missed one item,which s by e whole ensemble..
sweating and tired,we sat at e FIRST row..so honoured..lol..
being sit at e first row means we can c lots of funny stuff and they laugh loh..so bad...haha
n we heard cheering from behind for "liupu","yang shun" and "guo dong"..so surprising!
lol
then we cheered for them also..haha..
but sadly...when we cheered for yj,sk and rc...onli sk said he heard it...havent asked rc...but tts e sweetest cheer we did tt night leh...lol...e surprise s not a surprise liao..
a wonderful night when im shouting wif sore throat...haha...
n xs and i wanna join ABA!T.T

feeling tired liao...
think going to sleep...tml need to do work...
my life seems like occupied by endless of work..
nvr felt before..
i feel a sense of satisfactory when i completed by work...but i cant do tt most of the times ...tts e stressing part...

okie le...gd nitez to everyone...=)

PW meeting....

had cgm in e afternoon...wear normal clothes,they said its nice...=) i like to wear slipper!haha...maybe its e slipper s effect..
met up wif Kane who passed me some gp n phy books...even though its quite old edition but i feel happy tt he bother to find n pass to me..n he said he ll try to look more for me from his frenz...its warm to noe tt someone whom u r not tt familiar wif willing to help u.=)
when i got back home n going to bath,recieved one call from liupu...he s playing truth n dare!heard sk n susannze voice..
they belong to 3 different PW grp!
so its actualli sk n liupu s grp combined meeting...well..i wonder the nature of e meeting!n y s susannze there>?-.-lol(suddenly remind me of fri. s chat wif xs n liupu..haha)
xs s grp went kbox today to do gpp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!is tt realli PW meeting?lol...
n my GC spoilt...
T.T
but today chisin said he can help me wif my work during e holiday!yahoo....thank God...no one s realli helping me now bah...but its another warm encounter to noe tt he offer to help when he has not much notes left when i asking for it...
just now when i got back home...my grandma n my bros r all at home...but i dont feel e warmth of home leh...
its e difference between having mom at home all e time n having mom at work all e time bah...
haiz...how i wish to have a hug from someone...

i just feel discouraged when coming to think of school work...ppl asked me to try my best but im already trying...i failed almost all my tests bah...
i wonder how my block tests ll turn out to be..
haizhaizhaizhaizhaizhaizhaizhaiz

LIFE!

2.4!

i ran 2.4km today although i had a sore throat....T.T
so brave right?
then in the end got 32 position...

n my throat is burning now!
coughing is so miserable...T.T

stressful life...ART!

Im not the onli one who feels stressed recently bah....after talking to so many ppl,actualli each and every one of us r stressed....
its just the way we take this stress...we should press ourselves down too hard with them...this is wad i like abt xs....=)
i told giant i cried yesterday...n she said she was doing the exactly same thing...
there r stress over academic area, cca and other life events....

i n xs went to Art club today...we did painting...its quite nice to paint bah....feel better after doing some painting...both of us feel it=)
n the ppl r quite nice also...
n i found some RV ppl can be quite zi-high!-.-sian diao
lol

Life...

Now is a few minutes away from 8pm on Monday....4 hrs n a few min away from the next day...
i feel like crying now...im stressed....feeling so stressed....
how can one feel like crying because of stresses?i have wondered abt tt...n now come experiencing it...
i slept today 1 plus in the morning n woke up at 5...
haiz...
i just feel im studying almost all the time..or should i say rushing to finish my hw n cant...
n its just J1....how J2 will be like?
i have to finish one GP essay by Wed...how?.....n my PI....
n chem test,i do not understand the lesture notes yet...
n Maths....
n LEP has test also....

i cannot find support....im struggling in the sea....
n i can only depend on myself...
think tts life...haiz...
such a cruelity

haha

Life...

Now is a few minutes away from 8pm on Monday....4 hrs n a few min away from the next day...
i feel like crying now...
im stressed....feeling so stressed....
how can one feel like crying because of stresses?i have wondered abt tt...n now come experiencing it...
i slept today 1 plus in the morning n woke up at 5...
haiz...
i just feel im studying almost all the time..or should i say rushing to finish my hw n cant...
n its just J1....how J2 will be like?
i have to finish one GP essay by Wed...how?.....n my PI....
n chem test,i do not understand the lesture notes yet....
n Maths....
n LEP has test also....

i cannot find support....im struggling in the sea....n i can only depend on myself...
think tts life...
haiz...
such a cruelity

haha

tired...

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too many feelings....uneasy to express...................
unclear to express............


haiz...haiz...haiz....

Superwoman...

School work is obviously getting more and harder of course...consider i have just finished my PI draft1 one week ago and i need to finish another by this week...n there s e upcoming maths test...i didnt prepare to pass it...haiz...all e tests seem so hard to me now...have nvr had this kind of hopelss feeling...
but i think im more able to face these stress compare to earlier on bah....maybe its cos im more used to it le?...haha
who knows?
Competition exist quite obvious in e school...Most or should i say almost all gals r like "superwoman"...they have tough mind,strong determination,various talents and strong ability....not to mention abt their study...
maybe im just not like tt bah...i would rather be a normal woman in e future....haha...inambitious...
sometimes we as people have to come to realisation that we can onli depend on ourselves....isnt it so?cos e more u think u have a depend,the more disappointed u will get...
n most of e time when we know we onli have ourselves to depend on,we will strive hard to achieve something....
in e actual fact,there is realli no possibility tt anyone else will be able to help u in every aspect...
so we have to be strong to face everythings..
=)
Tml is another day to strive on....jia you le

n gd nitez...=)


ate KFC wif xs and ate ice cream at home....sore throat...T.T


random thought:we should hold on to the chance whenever we r given one.regret is useless..n ll merely add on to regrets.....lol...e latest part is a bit tough twisting but still sensible de....at least to me it is...haha

Defence of the ancient?...

Someone told me tt playing dota ll gain a form of happiness which u ll not gain from other places when i asked y guys generally like to play games>.<.... is this so? hmmmm..maybe bah... maybe i cant understand totally cos im a gal?o.O lol... but is addicting in it a right choice>
well...shouldnt comment on it bah...

i was thinking tt i should have accepted e SAF scholarship n went to poly then join e navy compare to studying in JC....
lol...
but what i truely want now is to go to a grape farm n make wine when i grow up!
tts daydreaming for now..
i was wondering y do we have to learn all e things we r learning now...r they useful in our career later on?
isnt it better to learn more abt life?
.....someone told me tt learning s a path for students...
well..i suppose so...n we ll have to do well in tt....
i have no confidence n no motivation nowadays.....
but we have no choice, do we?

today s xs 's birthday!WISH her a happy birthday...=)
xiaoming said we r fun...lol...i also think we r fun together...
fun things past through my head continuously....with knowing tt we just know each other for 3 1/2 months...yet we have done so many memorable things like went to eat Mcdonald in e morning when we knew we ll be late for school...n abt e water drop at e toilet...n e hundred-metre dashing at e bus stop...n e chapteh kicking...
haha...u made my Jc life wonderful...i miss u leh!u faster come back from camp..then we ll go for e sabbatical...hehe...SALSA!
lol....n INdian cooking...T.Ttt sounds scary..haha

although school work r pressing me down..i think its enough to have all these little happy things enlighting our life up...
just feel a bit sori to giant....i rejected her tt day abt going out...
have not been contacting her much recently...=(

Gd morning!( now s 00 15 on Monday..)=p

happy sunday slacking!

TOday s SUnday...suppose to be a work day...but i didnt do any tutorials after one day long!T.T
wad have i done?
hmmmm.....ate breakfast....slacking....sleeping n watching a movie called "yu4 guan1 yin1" !lol
nice day slacking...
but now feeling a bit unsure of tml...cos there r so many tutorials n i didnt do even one!i ll be died....T>T
n it s going to be 12....i havent slept!
i ll sleep tml on lessons....
thinking of it makes me shiver....T.T
anw...today s a wholesome gd day...=)

ppl in this age ll tend to think more when we have more access to ppl like sms n msn..rite?lol...juz a random thought...
nevertheless...wish everyone a happy week ahead!

dont wanna be apart wif u....>.<

I have been slept at 00:00 for a consecutive 2 days and yet i didnt fell asleep on bus surprisingly...
Today s an eventful day...
i was feeling happy in the morning due to a msg i recieved...n also of knowing tt xs ll be coming back school in e afternoon..
but all e happy mood was set off by e mocked SPA....i ruined it...
i keep on ruining things nowadays...
xs came back after i finished my lab....n i was undergoing depression...
but things went out fine in e end...we ate lots of stuff at e cafe...hahahahaha...our plan of on diet was ruined again!
lol..
we talked craps with liupu at e class bence cos nothing else to do...finally got to c wad xs meant by he s lame.....haha....then later on fj n rc joined us to play bridge...n not to forget xiaoming...
we were having a great time...hehe...n my voice became so "cute" wif xs.....even liupu was influenced by me n acted cute himself n got praised by rc/fj on his cutiness.....-.-....though i dont quite agree wif this...haha..how can he beat my wife on tt.....>.<
n guess wad?today s or class s 1st class outing!after 3 1/2 months.....
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well,we had our dinner at pizza hut at btp...
didnt realli have a great time there...partially s cos my wife s not there...
i recieved a call...n went out to ans it..
took quite a long time cos i have not talked to tt friend of mine for quite a long time..
i can sense ppl "suan" me when i got back....
haiz...
my way of presenting myself is wrong?
haiz...
n he minded tt?
i donno.....



v tired.....



wanna rest....



feel lyk going nowhr this weekend....



but there r cg outing tml......



should i go?


i dont feel like going but its bad to say it now.....



haiz.....


sleep first bah......


gd nitez.....(my content s in no relation wif my title...but its ok bah)

...

My study sucks,talent sucks,personality sucks,character sucks...
My life sucks...


is my life a mistake?


demoralisation.....

Gd nitez!=)...>.<

Life of a small gal s to do work until 11 40 pm.....cos she was slacking all e way until 9 plus....T.T
lol...i have juz finished checking e meanings for e vocab for one excercise...n there r still 2 more!
but i dont think i can continue work le...>.<
maybe tml on e bus?
hehe...if i can stay awake....
time for sleeping!lol...
donno y i suddenly picked up a light mood!=)
gd nitez to u.....

Faith or fear?wad do u choose?

i have created quite a few blogs since last year...the first one s v saddest....second one s quite confusing yet there r some realli funny things....but i didnt manage to keep them..
for this one here...i think i ll just stick to the simple blogskin....guess i ll be able to keep it..i just feel there should be some place for me to "cry out" my feeling sometimes or i ll feel v pressured..
well...school work s certainly getting over me....
im doing my PI...cant differentiate between feasibility and manageability...i noe e literal meaning but i donno what things to put in each one....T.T
how? how? drizzle tried to explain to me but im too blur.....>.<
n still have so many hw....
not to mention phy(i totally ruined my lecture test today),i have not a clue of wad sequence and series is for Maths n there s a test coming....well....the worst should counts for GP....i donno when i can pass it...didnt expect to pass this year...
haiz...
beside all this...MY　WIFE　has gone for camp...she ll be away for 2 weeks!onli 2 days have passed by now n im already getting sad....(lonely...im so lonely...)
no chance of being lame.....T.T
haiz..
n there comes another thing...have anyone read e poem called 错误 by 郑愁予?
well..its a poem which makes me relate to a lots of stuff...i first read it e day after a shocking fact has been made known to me..."我不是归人，是个过客..."everything in life seems to be unpredictable n things may get unreasonable sometimes..
sometimes i ll think i have screwed my life up...
n i ll doubt abt e decisions i have made... “...是美丽的错误...”
any form of addiction s not gd,yet its an addiction which cant be controlled easily..
i may get tired one day for running after a thing without reaching it...n being happy n sad periodically...yet im so addicted to it...tt makes me more tortured...
i may get tired one day...if tt day ll ever come..i think i ll be tired both mentally and psychologically...
as we ppl grow older...we ll tend to face more problems...not onli because more type of things r happening and r uneasy to manage...but also because our thinking r getting more mature n hence sensitive...


wif faith=c e solution
wif fear=c e problem
will i have faith or fear?i wanna live wif faith...
but sometimes i ll be attacked by fear...
i must hold on to faith....guess so...
God has plan for me...
n i ll have to work to e bright side...